All sh*ts!! No giggles!!

I’ve asked myself why do I want to start a blog? Why put yourself, your life and embarrassing bits out there? Well there’s a number of reason but theirs 3 main reasons why I want to do this!!

Firstly to help myself!!

I’ve hit my 30’s well I woke up 30 feeling 50 I actually woke up slower,

I’m getting slower by the day πŸ‘΅πŸ» anyway my health has been getting worse to the point I can’t work at all which kills me as I love working and interacting with people, always been a very sociable person but of late this really hasn’t been me!!

I’ve become withdrawn, unsociable, and quite frankly miserable, depressed and fed up of being ill all the time, being unable to work, being unable to take my daughter to school cause I’m bed bound allot of the time 🀬 I noticed my illness was now beginning to effect my mental health.

I was having one of my midnight shower/baths after messing myself AGAIN!! πŸ’© that’s right messed myself again during my sleep becoming quite the regular thing!! But it was then I had this Epiphany!!

The secret diary of a crohns girl

Not long before I went to bed that night I posted a picture of myself on social media and I received quite a few nice comments and it was then I thought πŸ’­ if only they knew!! Not many people even know I have Crohn’s disease so it got me thinking πŸ€”

I’m depressed and suffering and nobody knows it. How we’re able to Petrey this life that looks and is so rosey and this just isent the case for most people!! So I want to put myself out there. Writing ✍️ this blog/journal is really helping me process the life cards ♦️ Have dealt me ( a sh*t deck literally) it’s also made me appreciate life cause I now know how precious and delicate life is. Having crohns as bad as I do it’s forced me to look at life and appreciate it cause we really don’t know how many good years we got left!!

My second reason!!

Is to help others!! I’ve joined a few crohns and colitis websites and there are so many people like me suffering and I’m guessing they feel and are feeling exactly as I do!! Feeling like a failure, feeling like a failure as a women, a mother as a partner!! All because my body is failing me and failing me in such embarrassing ways, so embarrassing even to tell my doctors πŸ₯Ό but I have to remember and remind myself that’s it’s not my fault and it’s not your fault it’s this illnesses fault 🀬 I want to get rid of this stigma of not talking about it because “it’s embarrassing” it’s not embarrassing it’s not your fault!! So I’m going to let you all know the nitty gritty of what life is really like living with crohns!! And hopefully this can help others like me not feel so alone in this πŸ’ͺ

My third reason

And for me the main reason I’m doing this is for my little girl πŸ‘§

if for whatever reason I’m no longer around she will have this blog/journal to look back on. Hopefully she can look back at this with humour and understanding and that she was my reason for living and carrying on, she’s the reason I want to fight this illness even writing this I’m crying 😒 haha such a sad cow πŸ„ I know…god this is emotional

My blessed and not so blessed life 😘

18 thoughts on “All sh*ts!! No giggles!!

  1. Love u loads u loon. Even tho u do think the nurses are out to steel your teeth. Lol.
    My lovely friend xxx


      1. 100% would love to catch up. We used to have such a laugh together. Even reading your blog I can hear your voice when you write. You will get through this. You’re so strong. Xxx


      2. Thanks Lorraine, I’m trying to just be as honest as I can be its a little overwhelming cause all I want to do is promote a message and make awareness the writing I’ve got down (I think) its just the technical side can’t get my head round it I’m not computer savvy at all (I’m sure I’ll get the hang of it) thanks for keep reading inbox me your number as soon as I’m well I’m coming down your end to visit everyone hopefully we can have a catch up its been so long (where have the years gone Lorraine) scary thanks so Much again xxx


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